Surrender

light coming through a window

Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.” (Colossians 3:13)

By Carol Lopez

When my mom was diagnosed the second time with breast cancer, I retired from a fulfilling career in education to become her full-time care provider. Two years later, my mom lost her battle and Jesus called her home.

Before retiring, I worked for a manager who was brilliant, innovative, and very successful. However, I learned very quickly that in order to thrive in the workplace, I had to forsake most of my own creative ideas. Over time, I became very resentful and withdrawn, but I never made my feelings known. When he retired, I silently rejoiced. 

Now that my mom was gone, the tasks before me were insurmountable. I alone was responsible for clearing out her possessions and selling her house. I was afraid and wanted someone to tell me how to do this. I prayed relentlessly for guidance.  

Then one night I was awakened from a deep sleep and the light of the Holy Spirit was before me. He imprinted within my heart that God loves my boss and I because we are his children. I had to forgive myself first for being an imperfect human. I realized that my boss was doing the best he knew how to do, so I needed to forgive him within my heart from a distance. 

Over time, through deep prayer and communion with the Holy Spirit, I was able to let go of the past hurt and disappointments and sell my mom’s house. A new sense of freedom, healing, and empowerment was now my reality. And, most importantly, my relationship with our Lord Jesus Christ flourished.


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